The abeyant feeling

The world laughs at him,
His own image mocks through the silvery brims,
Once, He had power, fame and everything a person
In heaven could lay hands on,
Those were not got by some easy means
Toil, blood, and sweat were the source of his success,
But the vile world taught him a secret,
Which he should never have learnt?
Or was it a curse by the gods for his misdeeds,
He didn’t know,
His loved and dear ones warned him,
Saying” your tongue is your enemy”
Whereas others stepped on him, jeeringly
Encouraging his enemy.
He never paid heed to those warnings.
Not only leering at the loved one’s
But also detesting life and everything around it….
How long can these dilemmas of co-existence last?
A fragment of his mind started pondering and conversing
With other parts of the sub conscience,
Saying “you are the best person in the world
Y do u falsely create an aura of being the worst?”
That is when he realized,
His life had been a bad hangover,
Being an altruist with a waggling tongue
Is as bad as draining his own blood.
He started changing and life became a joyful ride,
I am what I am and I will not be what I was…

The sorrows of living

The pitfalls and traps of life are in pursuit of me.
I evaded it, dodging and latching onto whatever I could
But the tentacles crept growing longer and stronger
Each tendril was making an own path around thee,
The feeling of each of it growing was like a caress
I nurtured them gave them my blood and breath,
They too agreed to be my pals till death,
I enjoyed their company with all my heart,
Not caring about the flaws that would be caused.
This went on and on making the world turn around
Until one day I felt myself not so sound…
The feel of the parasites squeezing by their hugs,
Scratching my mind with their poisonous claws,
Which was once my life is now theirs.
I struggled, screamed and fought to set myself free
But the devil would not go without killing thee,
Helplessness is all it would have been,
If I wouldn’t have found my powers that would clear my sin.
I flexed, shrieked, tore at them frantically
Unknowing that the titanic wars have just begun
And the opponent also being from within…
All they did was show their hypnotic touch,
I evaded the wars with a thought in mind.
Searching for a way to end this madness was my goal.
A streak of light caught my attention and dazzled me.
The window of hope in the darkness of sorrow I can see.
I jumped, clinging to the edges of it in a haze
Still thinking if the heavenly memories should be got rid of in the blaze.
I left hold and fell deep, waking with a start
Scarred bruised and broken I was all,
My present state being my own decision made me wiser and older.
God forgive me is all I thought
One day he would give me what I want.
Till then never force him to give what. I want

The last realization

S.raghavender
I look deep in the abyss,
expecting a ray of hope,
searching far up the slopes
of the aberrational mountains,
wandering tirelessly, with thoughts askew...i looked at my image in the water, it asked me” what was i in search of”, that is when i lamented,
oh almighty! I have made mistake like all mortals have...
lamely trying to find the godly feelings that can be found abundant nowhere else but within me...
so without a second thought
I scrapped into myself,
like an eager child i plunged,
without thinking of the dangers
that cried” fall into thee"...
every nook and cranny i dint leave unturned, false trails leading me nowhere, the sands of time of my life emptying itself to death..
i chose a path of finding myself,
this expectation of finding something worthwhile has made my
life childlike, filled with innocence
and happiness leading to the elixir of immortality........
Being born a human how long can the search go on..
Alas! If only the curse which covers humanity like a blanket is torn to shreds..